Long ago I'd decided to live a peripheral life because I didn't agree with the way
people interacted with each other and their world with so little integrity and compassion.
I decided very consciously that I would never allow myself to become like that. Of course,
when the Bible said there would be deception after deception, who would have known that it
would be like this, and that so much would be directed toward me.
I suppose when Nostradmaus said the greatest hoax in the history would be exposed, I
assumed it meant it would be exposed to the world, not just to the guy who was being
hoaxed, and certainly not solely for the purpose of tormenting him for the purpose of
completing the perfect Psyop The manual says the goal of psyops i sto have the target
commit suicide after they are used.and their souls are hijacked. James and Todd,
apparently you let them take your souls, they'll never have mine. Like I said, our ways
don't seem to be so alike after all.
Ya know, people listen to your music, like I do, and believe there's reason to believe
you must share some common ideals with them. It's that way for me. I don't write anything
I don't honestly feel, and I set aside those things that I don't believe accurately
represent my being, particularly those things that I know are just a momentary outburst of
hurt of anger or hate that I just want to get out of my system
Ideologically, you guys gave me the impression you were some of the few left who
actually still believed in a better world. You might think that I'm naive and stupid. The
only way I would own those descriptions is if I was told I was living in a world where
people were supposed to be diabolically cruel to each other. But that's not the world I
believe in, and you lead me to believe that you believed in something greater and stronger
and wonderful.
In many ways, I'm just one more person who chose to stand for principal against a
government - and I knew that it was likely I would be harmed by my government and it would
not turn out well for me, and I could accept that if it did some good, started some
ripples and gave people some ideas about how to proceed when this soldier went down, then
I would have accomplished what I believed I was capable of doing. Still, knowing what I
know now, I believe my life has been a wasted life. Criminal waste of time.
I don't know what you think my "dream come true" might be, but it really
wasn't to be a rock star... that's just one more thing I know I could be capable of if I
wanted to.. like being the president of the United States, something I could do better
than anything else I believe I'm capable of. But, then, I'm one of those people who
believes that, when I'm committed to accomplishing something, I really can do anything.
But, with a world working against me, I get the message, you don't want what I offer.
Frankly, to have a*holes like you work to pigeon hole me and imprison me like this... I
know what I could have accomplished. And I will not be relegated to your plan for my life.
You're wrong about what you decided I should be. You betrayed God. You betrayed God.
So I'll keep doing what I do, and you guys will believe that you did something good by
betraying God and causing Barack Obama and the Democrats and the Council on Foreign
Relations to be successful in stealing everything I am as a person, and everything I had
to give as a man and a servant of God, and allowing them to harm millions and billions of
people, and so much life on this beautiful planet, because you do not trust God.
Ultimately, that will be what will be held against you both, and you all. Because the
damage you have subjected the world to with your distrust and betrayal of God will be
immeasurable, and you will be among those counted as responsible for the harm that is
done. And it will be vast and bleak. It already is.
Like I told Lynn, when more people become homeless, when more hurricanes destroy land
and buildings and so many good things, when disease and starvation afflict people and war
leaves its radioactive waste to cause mutatuions and mutilations and the desolation that
God calls an abomiantion... don't complain to me, or look to me for answers that I
altready tried to provide. Look to yourselves, and acknowledge what you have done,
and then don't blame me for your self condemnation.
You people need to understand, God already prepared a place for the Israelis, it's
called Israel. Destroy Israel, and it's gone. It's that simple. No new magical Israel
falling from the sky like hitting the reset button on a video game. This world is not a
video game. There are real souls. Real beings with real people. And, while you may believe
you're transcendant because you know the secrets of re-birth and incarnation (unlike those
the knowledge has been hidden from) you need to really understand that God said this was
the last time around for the "errant" souls to correct their ways. That
is not my opinion, that is God's judgment. Good luck with God.
Satan Walks Among Us... that is the man you have empowered. I hope you get what you
wanted, whatever form of hypocrisy that takes for you, and whatever satisfaction you
derive from it.
And I feel sorry for the people of the United States, who will one day have to face the
atrocities committed in their names, and with the fruits of their labors, and the
manipulations and hardships they will have and will have to endure as these psychopaths
carry out their plans. Just like Bill Clinton, they'll wine, dine, schmooze and make
everyone think they're wonderful while they line the pockets of people like you, who'll
lie, cheat and steal on their behalf.
You tell people to stand and fight. When will you?
It's important for me to know, though, that despite 53 years of harasmment, suppression
and harm by nearly everyone who I thought was a friend who turned out to be yet another
person employed to do me in.. I'm still who I am, I'm proud of myself.. not because I'm
stubborn or too stupid to quit, but because despite what I know what it means to the
detriment of my own life, I know that I never gave in, and that I never surrendered my
principles to some sick bastards who don't have a clue what integrity is. I do. And I
cherish that integrity more than anything on this planet. And I really would rather die
ipoversished and ill than to give up those principles. And I probably will. But like I
say, I know I'll be coming back.
And just like last night, when I got hit by a directed energy weapon and ended up
puking up my guts because of it... if God wants me to suffer like this so that people like
you can take that sick pleasure you derive by torturing people with psychotronics... if it
cause you to change your ways, or causes other people to destroy you and rid the world of
your kind, then something will be accomplished.
Meanwhile, my soul is free, always was, always will be. And I get to watch as you
all spend the rest of your lives knowing that you were so stupid and paranoid, and knowing
that what I had was what you needed and what... that it was worth so much that you spent
your entire lives stealing it from me, harming me and everything else to get it from
me without anyone discovering your crimes... that I was always willing to give it for free
just because it would do good.
And now I'm in the position of having to leave what I thought was the greatest country
in the world... the closest God ever created to His Plan.. perverted by people like you...
and so it's no wonder that His decsion is for me to walk away.
People say, now is the time to come together and unite.. but I truly do not believe I
am a citizen of this nation, nor does it appear that this world wants what I was sent to
provide, at least, not from me. To an extent, that's okay, because being who I am, if I
had only been treated decently, I would have given it anyway with the satisfaction of
knowing I had contributed something beneficial. As I always have. Knowing now that people
have purposely prevented me from completing any of the things I began that people have
stolen and benefitted from... I don't think my purpose in life was to empower the evil.
And so I won't. And I understand God's plan and how it works... and why. And it
could''ve been so easy. But instead, you conspired to bribe me with false hopes of
musicianship or whatever you thought I'd fall for. And still, I write Lamentations, while
living in Revelations.
I don't know what else to say, other than good job, I hope you continue to enjoy hell,
and one day, I hope God has each of you stand before your victims and confess, in detail,
moment by moment, every perpetration you particpated in against them.
God forbid Sarah Palin's son dies in Iraq, but if he does, I'll want to see on national
tv, her explanation to him how she was willing to allow him to die in a war for Exxon and
General Electric... while calling it an honor to defend the country against terrorists...
people like me... dissidents to the government of the United States and the New World
Order... not Islamists and foreigners...
The terrorists ARE the United States Government and those who control it. And people,
traitors like you, who have helped them. And you know it. I don't know how you sleep at
night.
Please just do me one favor, stop singing and professing about God, and faith and a
world of peace. Because as long as all of you are doing the kinds of things you do...
Because it makes me puke more than directed energy weapons.
When the smoke clears, I'll be around, and I'll be fine. Probably too old to do
anything for anyone, but cry. And I'll do that, but I'll do so with a clear conscience.
Good luck with yours. I assure you, it won't work out the way you guys planned. 2 bad 4
u. Don't blame God. There'll be a lot of gray mornings.
Lenny
White - Betta
Fleetwood
Mac - Landslide
Neil
Diamond - Am I Said
Sting
- Ten Summoner's Tales - 11 - Epilogue (Nothing 'Bout Me)
Here's an email about one of your victims
Some additional information on Rena: Her full name was Renate xxxxxxx, and
was a relatively new TI who was attending our weekly support meetings in the San Francisco
Bay Area. She committed suicide early Sunday morning, September 28, 2008. This was her
second attempt; the first was a few weeks earlier.
We were not successful in getting her to see a psychologist or psychiatrist, which many
of us close to her felt was best in her situation. She frequently complained that the
electronic harassment was too much for her to bear. We did all we could to help her cope
and provided her with several types of shielding.
Her targeting began late last year while pursuing an advanced degree in preparing to
become a social worker at the University of Minnesota. She then moved to San Jose,
California, earlier this year. Her roommate and caregiver, a non-TI and close friend of
Rena, is making arrangements for a simple memorial service, and everyone in the weekly TI
meeting support group is invited to attend.
